When You Find Your Limit Get Over It

Hi ladies and gentlemen,

it's a long time that I think which are my limits. I have understand that for me a limit can be divided in two categories. the first one is the category that I called physical limit were the limit it's something of physic that you can touch, you can feel on your body. The second category is for me the psychic-psychological category were the limit it's made of something that I can't touch and see but I can just feel deep in me and in my mind.

Now it's fairly years that I try to go over my limit but sincerely I do not really put on of both because I have believed that this limit leave me live a good life. During the last year I unexpectedly realized that I made a mistake. When I realize this I have found in front of me a great wall that hasn't left me to see what there were beyond. So I start to try to climb it and go over but, after almost one year I couldn't see the top, I can't see a beautiful landscape that will be there. I try to climb this wall to training my body with fatigue, with physical exercises, with everything else that I could apply on me to stress my body for obtain a great fit for climb this enormous obstacle. Every time that I have rode my bike, did body gym, ran I try to reached the limit an then get over it till the new one and so on and on. So far I reach a good fit but I were wrong because my wall is not made just of concrete or rocks, it's made also of thoughts and emotions.

So I have understood that my concept of limit have failed if it was applied on my psychological limit. Maybe the principal blame derived to the fact that there are nothing that I could do to feel my psychological limit, there aren't no climb, no numbers on a watch for check my run time, no number for any series of exercise. There are just my personal idea of limit that is in front of me and I feel like a personal limit that I can't go over. When I try to climb another step over the wall I feel that I slip down. It's so sad, I known and for go over I'll try to break with all around me and all in me since I will have my occasion and surely I'll supply it for ME!

Now for this thing I find myself like something that I could describe with the words of Fabrizio De André or: "... un rame ad imbrunire su un muro ..." that in English could be translate like: "... a copper that oxidize on a wall ..." the meaning is something that is fritter away. And I don't want this for ME!

Unfortunately this are just words and I aware that the reality is more and more heavy and strong. But I also know who am I. I'm a person that in him life have ever applied on himself with systematic and ruthless decision the command: "When you find your limit get over it!". This sometimes really has worked and unfortunately have bring me to neglect my most dear, rare and sweet affection. Now I want reach the top of my great wall and I don't want slip anymore under the heavy weight of my psychological limit. But for do this I must find it deep in me and without fear fight with their because now I am a loser and if I don't try to fight with their I'll remain the same loser forever! And do not want this for me because I could be a winner in my personal war.

See you soon my blogger,

Mio